Blissful Life

When you apply skepticism and care in equal amounts, you get bliss.

Author: akshay

  • A Community for Online Action in Community Health

    Today Guru, John, Swamy, Ravi, and I met in the Health for All – Learning Center workspace at SOCHARA. We discussed an action plan for the next 3 years (with a focus on 2023-24) for the Digital Archives Platform unit at SOCHARA. The archives becomes a core activity for a community of community health activist-scholars and activist-professionals to do study, reflection, action, and experiment online towards “Health for All”. 

    The larger hypothesis is that when we flood the internet with content related to community health, the second order and third order effects of that will lead to a massive movement by narrative building and discourse shaping towards community health.

    The DAP at SOCHARA is going to focus on SOCHARA’s own reports, publications, presentations, videos, audios, etc for the first year (along with medico friend circle’s archive). This comprises items from Appendix A of Silver Jubilee Museum Archive Project that happened between 2016 and 2022. The year after that we will focus on Appendix B (which includes networks and organizations SOCHARA is connected to) and Appendix C (which has special focus themes and topics). What to do in year 3 will emerge by the end of 2023.

    While this is just the Digital Archives part of it (which many organizations are now entering – NCBS, AICTU, APU, WIPRO, etc), there are many many other activities that this community can do:

    • Communications for community health with things like podcasts, memes, reels, and so on need to be built.
    • Stories of people and organizations need to be captured on wiki.sochara.org (which communityhealth.in now redirects to).
    • A public discussion forum needs to be created (either as part of something like Azad Maidan or independently).
    • Content of high quality and relevance like mfc bulletins and health taskforce report need to be modernized by conversion into web pages with hyperlinks.
    • Effective sharing of resources with other similar efforts in the network has to be accomplished.
    • The team at SOCHARA itself has to become comfortable with and active on these public documentation efforts.
    • … (your idea here)

    There’s plenty of interesting work that lies ahead. This month we will be focusing on the website and SOCHARA’s evolution story, physical clean up of the unused sections of the library, and getting “systems of sustainability” available for use of the team.

    Two tables put together with half a dozen chairs around it. Bookshelves filled with books are all around.
    The workspace in HFA-LC, after the meeting. I forgot to take a photo while the meeting was happening. The empty chairs symbolize the space for anyone reading this to come in and be part of the community.
  • Non-violence Wasn’t Gandhi’s Only Message

    I have read only one book of Gandhi – “My Experiments with Truth“. I read this when I was 13 or 14. I haven’t re-read the book after that. But Gandhi’s thoughts influences me to this day.

    “I have nothing new to teach the world. Truth and Non-violence are as old as the hills.”

    Today Gandhi is remembered whenever there is violence. Gandhi is used as a symbol of peace and love. We remember Gandhi mostly for non-violence.

    But Gandhi’s life was devoted to truth. Truth is a very important (if not the most important) message from Gandhi. “Devotion to this Truth is the sole justification for our existence. All our activities should be centered in Truth. Truth should be the very breath of our life.” wrote Gandhi.

    Gandhi teaches us that truth has great power. And in this post I will draw a direct connection between the power of truth and how a culture of dishonesty is ailing our society.

    ***

    Sonali Vaid had posted a thread with tips for people starting off in a public health career. The points 6 & 7 are especially illustrative of how many of us stray away from truth in our daily lives.

    7. We can be polite & respectful without being deferential. You don’t have to put yourself down – even if its someone senior.
    On the flip side some tend to disrespect boundaries if someone is friendly & not imposing seniority – don’t be this person!

    — Dr. Sonali Vaid (@SonaliVaid) March 21, 2023

    If I were an academic sociologist, I would do a paper on this topic connecting how the misguided Indian notion of “respect” is at the root of all things evil in India. Here is what happens. At a very young age, Indians are indoctrinated into “respecting” various things including elders, religious stuff, ancient stuff, and in general anything and everything. Now, there are two kinds of respect. There is the actual respect defined in dictionary as “A feeling of appreciative, often deferential regard; esteem” which is a deep emotion. And then there is a fake respect which is an act of showing someone “respect” by calling them honorific titles (like “sir”, “madam”) or by bending in front of them, touching their feet, etc. When young Indians are forced to “respect” people whom they do not respect in reality, they imbibe and internalize the fake respect. They touch the feet of the old relative while hating them. They call the teacher they hate “sir” or “ma’am”. They go to the religious institutions without knowing why. 

    This causes Indians to be greatly separated from truth in three very dangerous ways:

    1) They learn to ignore their feelings
    2) They learn to lie through their teeth
    3) They learn that truth does not matter

    When one learns to ignore their feelings, they can no longer be struck by conscience.
    When one learns to lie, it becomes easier for them to cover-up the truth.
    When one learns that the truth does not matter, truth dies.

    This affects us in every single field.

    India’s elite scientific institutions engage in scientific fraud (and retract papers when caught). Nobody keeps these institutions accountable for the sub-standard work they do. And truth doesn’t matter.

    India’s health system is not interested in Indian’s health. Hospitals are the most violent places. Nobody keeps our healthcare system accountable for poor quality healthcare. And truth doesn’t matter.

    Judiciary, engineering, social science, film industry, sports, infrastructure, urban planning, environment, finance, … Take any field. Truth doesn’t matter.

    Every Indian knows that Adani is just the most successful among businesses that do the same kind of unfair business practices in India. Everyone knows that there is a great deal of corruption in Indian politics and money is made by corrupt politicians and bureaucrats in various corrupted ways. Everyone knows that Indians are lying. And we gladly join the lie. Because truth doesn’t matter.

    And it all starts with us learning to lie by showing “respect” to people.

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    It is possible to reverse this dishonesty in our individual lives. We need to follow just one principle:

    A radical commitment to truth

    Truth is very much misunderstood. What is truth? Is it something written down somewhere? Is it the same for everyone? Are there multiple truths?

    Gandhi can be helpful here too: “WHAT…is Truth? A difficult question; but I have solved it for myself by saying that it is what the voice within tells you”

    I concur with Gandhi on this. Truth is a very personal thing. Truth is when your thoughts, your speech, and your action are in 100% agreement with each other. Truth is when you don’t lie.

    Let me make it more practical. A radical commitment to truth requires the following:
    1) Being in touch with your emotions and feelings, and showing commitment to try to label them accurately.
    2) A commitment to yourself to not invalidate your own feelings. To not act in ways that go against your feelings.
    3) A commitment to follow-up on things that you are uncertain of – so that you can arrive at the truth.

    We often fail in all the three.

    When we feel sad or annoyed, but don’t recognize that we are so, we are being out of touch with our emotions.

    When we tell ourselves that we should be grateful while we’re actually disappointed, or when we act calm while we are furious, we are invalidating our feelings.

    When we are uncertain of what our inner voice is telling us and we give up on reflecting, without experimenting to understand the truth – we’re breaking our commitment towards truth.

    Psychotherapy often helps with 1 & 2 above. It helps us to label our feelings. And it trains us not to invalidate our feelings. Although the very act of therapy can be a pursuit of truth, point 3 is deeper than that. A commitment to follow-up on things that we are uncertain of – is essentially about what we do with our lives. It is about deeply engaging with questions and finding “truth” through our engagement. 

    Gandhi did this through politics. “To see the universal and all-pervading spirit of Truth face to face one must be able to love the meanest of creation as oneself. And a man who aspires after that cannot afford to keep out of any field of life. That is why my devotion to Truth has drawn me into the field of politics; and I can say without the slightest hesitation, and yet in all humility, that those who say that religion has nothing to do with politics do not know what religion means”

    It is why I’m committed to interdisciplinarity and generalism. If you’re drawn to truth, you can no longer visualize the world in isolated subjects and topics. The curiosity will make you read, listen, travel, experience, and understand people. The commitment will make you a truth-seeker, a “scientist”, it will make you devise your own methodologies. The positive energy of truth-seeking will force you to build, create, teach, write, and share.

    Truth is as spiritual as it is science. It is as abstract as it is real. It is as hard as it is simple.

    It takes nothing to start seeking truth, it takes everything to start seeking truth.

  • Book Review: Everything is Obvious – Once You Know The Answers

    I first saw this book in the Internet Freedom Foundation thread on which books people there were reading. Then I saw it on Scott Young’s blog which I have been following since childhood. I never got around to reading it till yesterday when I got into a 19 hour train ride to reach Sevagram for medico friend circle’s annual meeting.

    There was no better time to read the book because mfc’s meeting this year is on caste; caste is one of those sociological phenomenons that defy common sense thinking every day; and this book is about “how common sense fails us” and why sociology is not  merely common sense.

    What Duncan Watts has done is write a book specifically for a particular niche of people. This niche includes those people who become so used to straightforward deterministic sciences that they start seeing the limitations of it and look at larger and more comprehensive studies of human kind. Duncan went from learning physics to becoming a sociologist. This is exactly the route that Nihal is taking (from law to policy). And the route I’m taking from medicine to history. And the biggest issue that we face when we take this route is this unprecedented predominance of uncertainty.

    That sociology is more complicated than rocket science. That there are no grand rules waiting to be discovered which will solve all questions. That there are no silver bullets. This is a hard realization. Not one that’s impossible. With enough interdisciplinary exploration and generalization people like Nihal and I do discover that the world is full of uncertainties. But it’s just so difficult to settle for that. “It feels wrong”. 

    And this book makes it feel right. Well, not exactly. But at least it makes it a palatable truth that the world is extremely complicated. It also protects us from common sense thinking that makes us settle for simplistic explanations that push us into silver bullet solutions. This book, you must read, if you have asked this question “What on earth does a sociologist do?” Once you read it, you’ll feel like the contents of the book itself is obvious. And that’s the whole point of the book. Everything is obvious, once you know the answers.

  • Personal Is Political in Professional Practice

    “Should a doctor treat an alcoholic who is injured due to drunk driving? Would your opinion change if it were just a solo accident v/s injuring/killing other people on the road?” asked @arshiet. The regular controversy. Should doctors judge their patients? Is it ethical to even ask the question of whether it is ethical for doctors to withhold treatment to anyone? What are the social determinants of alcohol use?

    The issue is straightforward in the emergency room. You save life first and worry about alcohol and justice later.

    But what about elective issues? If you are an obstetrician and you are pro-life, do you avoid elective abortions? If you are a pediatric surgeon and you consider circumcision as genital mutilation, do you avoid ritual circumcisions? Conscientious Objection – apparently that’s what it is called.

    One of the solutions offered is that the healthcare provider can be upfront about the moral position and arrange a different provider. This helps the patient to retain autonomy and the provider to retain moral clarity.

    Basically, doctors can’t simply cancel patients.

    If we refuse to see the doctor-patient relationship as special, we can see that what’s at play here is the tension between “personal is political”, cancel culture, etc on one side and the practical realities of the world on the other side. I’ve personally gone through the self-isolation of ideological purism and come out with the ideology that it is okay to be altruistically pragmatic.

    The world is full of people with incompatible ideas, values, and norms. If we start cancelling, we end up cancelling almost everyone. If we don’t cancel, we become an apolitical mess. The point is then about finding alternatives to canceling everyone. You cancel some, you strategically avoid some, you engage sincerely with some others.

    That intelligent, “nuanced”, intersectional approach to politics is called life.

  • History is to Practice

    I’ve been in many debates where “science” is accused of being wrong. As if science is a set of things written down in a book or a set of ideas that are arrived at by a group of people. Something that has to be consumed by others. I’m baffled by this argument because, to me, science is a tool available for every human being to practice. It is my use of science to understand the world that matters to me. When I say “scientific method” I am talking about the method *I* use to arrive at the truth. It might be the same method that a professional scientist used, but I have to replicate that method and arrive at the truth on my own.

    When chatting with Ravi Narayan (RN) yesterday about the SOCHARA archives, I had a very interesting realization. The way I used to look at history was the way these people looked at science. I thought about history as a set of facts written down in many books, as a scholarly consensus available to those who are in the elite universities. The thought I had was this: What if, like I practice science instead of consuming it, I start practicing history instead of just cataloguing it?

    I can’t say that this thought had nothing to do with the discussion I was having with Upendra Bhojani about a Masters in History that UB was pursuing. History is a science. It is the science of the past. And without knowing the methods of studying history, I was basically being less effective as a historian.

    And without being a historian, it is difficult to be an archivist!

    So, I’m doing two things now:

    1. Take on the identity of a health historian seriously and consciously.
    2. Start practicing history.

    Another insight I had about myself was that I learn a subject the best when I have a framework that fully encapsulates the topics in it. The more there are unknown unknowns in a subject, the less I’m interested in studying it. But when I have a complete and comprehensive “table of contents”, my brain feels comfortable in taking on that skeleton, slowly going through all of the actual contents and attaching things one by one into that skeleton. I need to first have the big picture before I let in even one of the finer details.

    So, I made RN sit down and help me build that framework of how to think about the history of community health in India. After the discussion there’s a rough framework that is now emerging in my mind:

    • Prehistoric times of British India
    • Bhore committee and the first 25 years of independence. 
    • The search for alternatives in the 70s and 80s
    • Whatever happened in the 90s towards “Health for All by 2000”
    • People’s Health Movement
    • NRHM and NHM
    • Ayushman Bharat and so on…

    Much of the discussion with RN yesterday was about the 70s and 80s. RN took out 4 books on to the table:

    • Health for All – An Alternative Strategy (ICMR/ICSSR)
    • Alternative approaches to meeting basic health needs in developing countries (UNICEF/WHO)
    • Health and Family Planning Services in India (D Banerji)
    • Community Health – In Search of Alternate Processes (CHC)

    I swiped them into my bag for weekend reading.

    The NRHM bit was interesting. In my mind, the people’s health movement, the alternatives, all of these were failures. But, RN was like, “25 people out of this movement, who had by then (by NRHM formation time) formed the Jan Swasthya Abhiyan, are (were) consultants to the NRHM”. That was a light bulb moment for me. NRHM, in the biomedical colleges is taught like just another chapter, without giving it the emphasis that it deserves. That ASHAs who represent the shift into decentralization came through NRHM and how significant that is, is kind of forgotten. For me who started medicine in 2011, the idea of ASHA that was passed on to me was that of a healthcare worker like nurse or doctor, working with a very small population. But that’s totally missing the spirit and heritage of ASHAs and NRHM.

    The story of ASHAs and the story of NRHM is thus the story of evolution of community health in India. And that’s the story we’re interested in.

  • The Overcompensating Sociologists of Public Health

    Reflexivity. That’s a word very dear to sociologists. It just means how we look at the world is influenced by who we are. But like many things sociology, you give it a word and then you make a big deal out of it.

    So much that some of the sociologists reading this post are already raising their hand saying “Hey, but you’re talking about ‘positionality’. Reflexivity is actually about how we take into consideration our positionality in our research”.

    Shouldn’t the fact that how we look at the world is influenced by who we are automatically also mean that we should be cognizant of that and take that into consideration in our research? Apparently sociologists can’t do that automatically without having a different word for it.

    Or maybe they can and I’m just stereotyping them. After all, my identities put me in the positionality of an anti-academic-sociologist.

    This post is not about sociologists who don’t care about the world. And therefore I am not going to write about how there are some of them who just keep doing esoteric debates funded by public money in public universities.

    This post is not about the superficiality of academia. And therefore I am not going to write about the publication game.

    This post is about the sociologists who overcompensate for their identities.

    It starts with privilege. By their very nature, there are a lot of people in academics and sociology who come from very privileged backgrounds. For some of them, academics might have led to their understanding of their own privileges. This can probably explain why they keep going back to jargon to describe the plight of the world, because it appears that without the words given to them by academics they find it hard to understand or describe the wrongs in the world.

    My conjecture is that when they look at a subject like traditional medicine in the context of pluralist health system in India, they go “Oh, I’m from a privileged background and therefore I should compensate for my biases against traditional medicine. I shouldn’t be part of the ‘undemocratic’, ‘elitist’, and ‘self-centered’ biomedical field of this country, I should rather side with the ‘downtrodden‘” because I cannot imagine any other reason for one to claim that traditional medicine being sidelined as “unscientific” is because of the “political economy of knowledge production” and that scientific community has to devise ways to legitimize traditional medicine.

    Modern medicine has several problems. The practice of modern medicine is riddled with problems too. Knowledge production in modern medicine has a definite politics. But to use these as arguments to promote traditional medicine is a sophisticated form of whataboutery. And some of these academicians do this as well so as to talk about traditional medicine.

    I call these people “the overcompensating sociologists of public health”. Their “solidarity with the oppressed” is more about their own struggles than about the struggles of the people. They would rather stick to their arguments romanticizing traditional medicine (getting applause from the cult of anti-science orientalists) and have people die eating roots and leaves than have their praxis in the form of advocating for better access to quality healthcare.

  • Does Medicine Need a Paradigm Shift?

    Let’s start with physics

    As my brother’s T-shirt says “The Pulse of the Earth is in Physics”. Physics is a fundamental science. Also called “pure” science. That is a fancy way of saying it is reductionist. When you think of an apple falling to Earth in physics, all you think about is its mass and the forces acting on it. Everything else is immaterial to physics, including the questions like “Is the apple rotten/ripe?”, “What is the probability of the apple falling on a rabbit and killing it?”, “Are there hungry people waiting for the apple who won’t get to eat it?”, and “Is the apple cursed?”

    The question whether apple is rotten can be answered by another branch of science called biology. Physics and biology are called natural sciences. These are branches of science which rely on observation of the universe to reach at inferences on how the universe works.

    The question on probability would fall under mathematics. Mathematics is a bit different from natural sciences. Because it is based on axioms and logic. Such sciences are called formal sciences.

    A hungry class of human beings not getting to eat apples and the reasons behind it would be the matter of study in social sciences.

    The cursed apple is a subject of religion and superstition. These are, by definition, not questions for science to answer.

    What kind of science is medicine?

    Medicine is not a pure science like physics. It is an inter-disciplinary, applied science. Medicine uses several branches of science like biology, chemistry, and mathematics in its own goals.

    A medical practitioner has to know several sciences like anatomy, physiology, biochemistry, pharmacology, and microbiology to be able to practice medicine well. They would also need skills in probability, reasoning, and logic. Also critical are skills like communication, empathy, leadership, and management.

    There are also several other forces in play that influence the practice of medicine – education, medical training, health systems, politics, economics, religion, human resource, war, and so on.

    The question of a paradigm shift in medicine is thus complicated. Which part of medicine would the paradigm have to shift in? In the numerous sciences that make it up? In the way it is practiced? In the way people are trained in it? In the way the systems around it are organized?

    Science is the only way of knowing 

    What is science? 

    The opening statement from Wikipedia is: “Science is a systematic endeavor that builds and organizes knowledge in the form of testable explanations and predictions about the universe.”

    Science is what allows human beings to operate in the world. It is the sum total of all that we know about the universe through thousands of years of living in it and observing it. It is the reason why we know that if I strike a lighter in a particular way with a knob turned on the gas from a cylinder will come into the stove and start a fire. It is how we cook and eat. It is the reason why we know that elephants can lug trees while cats or dogs can’t. It is the reason why we are able to talk to each other over the internet.

    Everything we know about the world is through theories and observations that confirm those theories. When we come across observations that contradict those theories, we are forced to come up with better theories. But till then, we seem to be able to live on earth with the old theories.

    Is there any other way of knowing about the world? Think about it. Everything that you know about the world would come from your own observations and theories, or those by others that you have read about. There is simply no other way to know facts about the world.

    You might say, “Oh, to know whether it is raining, I just have to look out of the window. No science involved”. But hey, what you’re doing is observation. And then forming a theory that it is raining. What if there is a film shoot going on and they’re pouring water with a hose and that is what you’re observing through the window?

    The whole experience of seeing water drops falling down from sky and knowing that “it is raining” is based on science. It is based on human observation since time immemorial of the natural phenomenon called rain. Even when you’re looking out of the window to say whether it is raining, you’re using science. And it is science that allows you to say whether it is actually raining or a film crew pouring water.

    You might also say, “Hey, I know cycling, is that science now?”

    When you say you “know” cycling, the knowing refers to a particular sense of muscle memory that you have developed through practice. But this is not the kind of knowing we are talking about. We are talking about knowing how the universe and everything in it works.

    Read a related post about this question of whether science is the only way of knowing, where I argue that if there is a way to know, then science is the only way of knowing. Consequently, there are some things we cannot know, and this question would not apply at all.

    Queering science

    While indeed science can be seen purely as methods of rationality as above, it is has to be acknowledged that science is ultimately a human endeavor and thereby it reflects all the faults of the human society almost as it is.

    I’ve dealt with this human aspect of science in an earlier blog post and so I won’t repeat those points here. Suffice to say, there is an intersectional approach to the practice of science that’s missing in mainstream science.

    What about applied sciences?

    When it comes to an applied science like medicine, the problems seem to compound. Many of the sciences that make up medicine are all super hard to study. The tools we have are limited. And the institutions that we have are very problematic spaces (in terms of patriarchy, violence, oppression, and discrimination).

    When faced with such a complex challenge, many people prefer to run away and find comfort in places that nobody is finding faults with (although they would be riddled with even more issues). That’s why many people turn to Reiki, Homeopathy, Ayurveda, and so on. This gives them psychological comfort. But this is no solution to anyone’s problems. We will talk about that later.

    Applied sciences deal with the real world. One that is filled with uncertainties. One where perfect knowledge is impossible, but action is inevitable. It takes a lot of interdisciplinary thinking to operate in the field of applied sciences.

    Let us look at what some people call Evidence Based Medicine. EBM is misunderstood by many. They give undue stress to the word “evidence” and think that a randomized control trial is the be-all and end-all of EBM. These are the people who assume that medicine is based on a paradigm of large numbers. What they do not know is that there are three pillars of evidence based medicine:

    • Clinical judgement
    • Relevant scientific evidence
    • Patients’ values and preferences

    Clinical judgement is where the practitioner comes in. The validity of medicine rests on the practitioner making the right observations and judgements about a particular situation. Similarly, we need a body of evidence, a body of science before us to be able to make any intelligent observations. And considering all of this is about a patient, it is imperative to keep their preferences in the whole matrix of evaluating what to be done.

    Let us talk about relevant scientific evidence a bit more because that seems to cause a lot of confusions in the world. (Even in an otherwise brilliant talk about integrated medicine, Ravi Narayan equates medicine to controlled clinical trials, for example. (19:30 in the video)).

    It is all about knowing the truth, as we discussed in the beginning. How do we know what to do in a particular situation. When someone comes in front of you with cough, weight loss, and fever, what do you do? What if you also found in the sputum of this person the organism that is known as Mycobacterium tuberculosis? What do you do? How do you know what to do? That’s the important question.

    If you knew magic, you could perhaps try that. You could get rid of all the M. tb from their body magically! That would help them. You might save them from certain death.

    But if you didn’t have the evidence built over centuries of human beings struggling with this disease called tuberculosis, how would you even know that this person would die soon?

    It is only the scientific method of knowing the universe that can guide us to move even an inch forward towards helping those who are struggling.

    The alternative to science

    The alternative to science is the pandemonium of opinions and beliefs. There are people who consider these as ways of knowing the universe. But they don’t critically think about their own philosophy.

    Firstly, whose opinion counts? Who is authorized to make opinions? Is it reserved for people who meditate in the Himalayas? Can you and I do it? Does it have to be done high on weed? How do we measure whether someone is legitimate in claiming that the shit they pulled out of their ass is the correct knowledge about the world?

    Secondly, when you have two people claiming two shits that are contradictory to each other, what do you do? Let’s say person A says eat leaf A, while person B says eat leaf B when confronted with the patient we saw above. Which leaf should the person eat? Both leaves? No leaf?

    The only way to evaluate anything and arrive at an actionable prediction about the universe is through science. If you look at what’s typically called pseudoscience, things like Homeopathy, what you can see is that underlying all these are certain theories that are of very low quality. These theories are sometimes not verifiable. And if at all they’re verifiable, they end up to be false. Proponents of these pseudosciences typically take comfort in the space where they come up with a theory, believe in that theory, and don’t bother verifying those in the real world.

    Paradigm shift in medicine?

    Having said all that, let us come to the question of the need for a paradigm shift in medicine.

    It is easy to speak in vague terms about “holistic” approaches that incorporate a paradigm of being “more rigorously attentive to the individual while keeping in view the larger picture”. But when it comes to practice, we can quickly see how rhetoric like these are hollow.

    Does attentive to the individual mean using genetics and personalized/precision medicine? Does it mean just taking patient preferences into consideration? How scientific and rigorous do you have to be when you say “rigorously attentive”? If a person says “I think homeopathy will work for me” and you diagnose tuberculosis in them, what do you do?

    What about the other question. How many people practicing modern medicine are actually practicing evidence based medicine? How many do rely on science and evidence to manage their patients? How many randomized control trials did people use to prescribe drugs during COVID. How many RCTs are followed when people prescribe platelets and antibiotics for dengue? How many RCTs are followed when people diagnose typhoid with a single Widal test of 1:40?

    Does the “larger picture” include social, political and economic determinants of health? But does it also mean that the focus should only be on distal determinants? Would you not worry about Anti-Tuberculosis Therapy in someone with TB or will you only keep saying “nutrition!”, “nutrition!”, “nutrition!”. Fine, nutrition. But how? Will you feed this person out of your pocket or will you keep saying the government should come with food security schemes? Fine, the government should come with food security schemes. But will you work with policy makers on making such schemes a reality or will you keep writing about it?

    Yes, a paradigm shift is necessary. A paradigm shift that puts people first. A paradigm where sacrificing rationality for practicality and/or sacrificing science for pluralism doesn’t kill innocent people. A paradigm where working on social determinants goes hand in hand with treating now those who are suffering now. A paradigm where paternalism and saviour complex are replaced with solidarity and praxis. Nobody can say no to that paradigm shift.

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    Footnote: There’s a human tendency to come up with alternative hypotheses to explain seemingly miraculous phenomenons. When I was 16 years old, I came up with “ASD rays” to explain telepathy. Thankfully there was a group of people who explained to me that my theory, however “sound” explains a phenomenon that’s non-existent. At that point in time James Randi offered a million dollars to anyone who can demonstrate paranormal claims. And nobody won it, of course.

    As long as people think that things like homeopathy actually are more than just placebo, they’ll come up with theories that go into sub-atomic realms to explain how these work. That’s natural. And they’ll keep struggling to understand why rational people reject their theories. If you are empathetic to them, you’ll realize that to them it is inevitable that these theories must be true because otherwise how do they explain to themselves their “miraculous cure” that others believe is charlatanry?

  • Money Matters

    Warning: This post discusses money. Like, it’s going to talk about my account balance. Now, for some of the people reading this, their account balance might be much lower than mine. And for others, vice versa. So, if you don’t want to compare lives, you’re better off not reading this.

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    Like I said when I was interviewing Shreyas for IBComputing, I don’t believe that we should wait till we grow old to write about the strategies we use to live our lives. The main reason is that what we do today is probably going to get outdated in a couple of years and therefore writing/talking about it 20 years from now is not going to help anyone.

    A few years ago I saw a blog post by Michael Lynch, who had quit job at Google and started out as a solo developer. In that post, M discusses how much money M was making – profit, loss, revenue, everything. M made another post after a year, and another, and another. These annual posts talking about finances were very inspiring to see.

    I am also attempting something like that here. For the sake of completeness, in this post I will do a recap of what’s been happening to my bank accounts till now.

    ***

    Privilege.

    Like I hinted in the warning, each life is different. Someone who has more expenses than I have might not be able to save as much money as I can. Someone who started out with a tougher deal might not be able to make as much money as I can. And vice versa. The purpose of this post is not to tell people that they can follow what I did and make money. Neither do I think that I’m making more money than everyone else. This is not a self-help/advice/moral blog post. This is simply about making my financial life transparent.

    ***

    The first salary I have gotten came from the compulsory internship I did as part of MBBS course at Mysore Medical College. Till then it was only my family putting money in my pocket and bank account to pay hostel fees, eat food, etc.

    So, from 2016 March to 2017 March I was making about ₹20,000 (if my memory serves me right) monthly. When I started earning my dad stopped putting money into my account. So, it was only when I went home my grandmother giving me 5k-10k once in 4 months or so that was my additional income.

    At the end of this internship, I vaguely remember having around ₹1,40,000 in my account.

    March 2017: ~₹1,40,000

    ***

    Then I joined SVYM as a resident medical officer. The rural economy of Saraguru combined with the cheap food and accommodation there meant that I could save almost all of the ₹35,000 I was getting as salary there.

    In the last few months of working there, I was also moonlighting (remotely) in a Bengauluru start-up in an engineering role. I was being paid hourly there.

    In August 2018 I left SVYM and moved to Bengaluru. This is when I started tracking my financial situation seriously. And therefore, from here on I have very good numbers.

    August 2018: ₹4,47,613.61

    ***

    The first house Swathi and I lived in was in Mathikere in Bengaluru. We paid ₹10,000 rent per month. We did have a splitwise group between us that we maintained quite well in those times. (Nowadays we only put large numbers, like house rent, in that splitwise group). We used to eat outside a lot (lots of Kerala restaurants near Ramiah hospital). Traveling was mostly by metro and BMTC buses. Sometimes Uber.

    I have a simple way of tracking money that doesn’t take my time regularly, and can be done whenever I have time. I keep a google sheet titled Vitamin M (see picture)

    The first column is date. Then there are columns for each bank account I have. Then a column for cash in hand. Another for money I’m owed. A couple of columns for totals (one is total liquid cash, the other is total virtual worth (liquid + owed)). I also kept a column to track the difference between the total at any moment and the money I had when I first came to Bangalore.

    There is no rule on when to update this sheet. I used to update it whenever I had a chance, I remembered, or I felt like I wanted my life in order. The procedure to update is also simple. I enter the date. I login to all bank websites and enter the current balance. Then I count the money in my wallet. Then I open splitwise and other trackers to see how much money people owe me. And the rest of the calculations is done by formulae.

    If you can see the picture, you’ll notice that from August 2018 (when I moved to Bangalore) till the end of 2019, my balance was always below the baseline (of 4.5 lakh). But it was also not going too far below. Basically, I was making almost as much money as I was spending in the initial year of being in Bangalore. This was through working as a doctor and also as a developer.

    Around August of 2019 we had moved to a house in Kadiranapalaya which is equidistant from Indiranagar metro, Halasuru metro, and Swami Vivekananda metro. The rent here was ₹14,000. And the living costs were also slightly higher than Mathikere. The startups I was working with were all struggling to pay at that time and by around October 2019, I had dipped to ~₹3,20,000.

    But towards the end of that year I started working with a non-profit as a software developer and that’s how I first crossed the baseline after coming to Bangalore.

    October 2019: ~₹3,20,000

    ***

    As unfair as it is, as I was making more money, more projects were coming to me with even more money attached. I was an investigator in a public health intervention/research study. I was seeing patients. I was developing software for various people. I was getting paid for workshops I facilitated.

    By April 2021, my worth was about ₹10,00,000. I was a millionaire in Indian rupees. And remember all of this was when the world was burning with COVID.

    April 2021: ₹10,00,000

    ***

    About time the second wave of COVID hit I was getting disillusioned by the things I were doing. I quit almost all paid work and sat at home.

    My calculation was that at the rate I was burning money, I could easily float for 3 years, or even 5 years if I tried. So I was under no pressure to make more money. 

    I did various things from around May 2021 to May 2022. Lots of different experiences. I stretched myself in all possible directions and figured out my limits and possibilities.

    May 2022: ~₹7,50,000

    ***

    In June 2022 at the compulsion of my friend I started another paid, part time role as a software developer at Kinara Capital. Coincidentally on the day I joined there I also took up the responsibility of leading an archival effort through SOCHARA who also decided to pay me against my wishes. And many tiny projects/workshops as earlier still keep coming.

    While I’m writing this, I updated the Vitamin M sheet. And it tells me that I’m a millionaire again.

    November 2022: ₹10,78,646.30

    ***

    Addendum: It is not just Michael Lynch who has inspired this post. The financial life of Pirate Praveen is also public information because Praveen has disclosed it as a candidate in many elections. Between those and the financial reports of various non-profits, I do not see any reason why I shouldn’t be writing this blog post.

    I’m also the director of an LLP and I assure you that the numbers in that bank account changes nothing in this analysis. If you know what I mean.

  • By Doing “Government’s Work”, Are We Making It Easier for The Government and Worse for the People?

    At the end of the CHLP session today Akshay (not me) asked something like: “When we do work that the government should be doing, are we making it easier for the government in some ways, and also making it more difficult to hold the government accountable?”

    This is a question that only someone who is truly invested in community work can ask. They are worried that the government is going to invest less in that particular problem, that in the long run it becomes harder and complicated because of the reliance on “bespoke” solutions. (The example given was how government relies on the voluntary effort of data by covid19india.org / covid19bharat.org to get COVID related counts and how there is no other system to track these counts)

    I do not claim enough experience to answer this question.

    But if we break down this question, the concerns we have are:

    1. How sustainable are such bespoke solutions? If we could keep doing it forever, then why should we not do it forever? Should government ever take over?
    2. Are such bespoke solutions less effective than more universal solutions? If yes, are we causing a less than optimal outcome? If no, are we preventing a scale-up of these solutions by the mere fact that it came from outside the government?
    3. Does access to and/or existence of such bespoke solutions make it difficult to demand more universal solutions from the government? (Either by making people reticent or by making the demand look less urgent)

    A few counter points are:

    1. But how long should I wait for the government to do the right thing?
    2. Who is at the receiving end of our desire to wait for a universal solution? Who suffers when we wait?
    3. Let’s say I don’t attempt the bespoke solution. What do I do now? Should I now force the government to build a solution?

    The way I avoid these questions are by thinking:

    • The government is a huge, inefficient, highly hierarchical organization with not much capability to build innovative solutions. Therefore, expecting government to come up with a good solution is pointless.
    • I should do things that give me joy, not what brings joy to the world. If bringing joy to the world in certain ways brings me joy, then so be it.
    • The second-order, third-order effects of our actions are very very hard to predict. No matter how much we “calculate”, not much is going to come out of the calculations. We have no way to say that any particular action is what is going to help the world. We just do what we want to do and hope that it turns out to be a good thing. Often, there is no way to actually say whether something turned out to be good either.
    • If we are creating value, putting value out into the world, it is more likely than not that we’re doing something right. The value will compound in ways we cannot anticipate. Always.

     If you are reading this and you have answers to some of these (existential, sorta) questions, let me know.

    Update

    I sent this to Tanya and Prashanth. Prashanth tried to add a comment and failed. That comment is:

    “This is an important question to “struggle” with especially for those
    (like me) who are involved in such “solutions” that are often not only
    outside-the-box, but also as rightly pointed out, being designed outside
    the “public” system. For an individual like me for whom, working with
    indiviudals/communities/populations is coming from an ethical
    imperative and from wishing to move our society towards health equity,
    there is – I confess – no other way. What do we who do not wish to work
    within governments for various reasons do? I think what we can do is
    build coalitions, networks and allies which nudge/push/critically
    demonstrate the need for public services and systems to do more. And for
    me, such efforts are ways of showing that more can be done. Another
    reason to do this is to address the inertia that sometimes develops at
    middle level institutions (like districts) where the glamour of
    word/jargon based policy vocabulary is not there and the fatigue of
    under-resourcedness is a daily reality. So, I believe such efforts can
    hopefully spur creative thinking within public systems, build allies
    within the system and who knows…knowing the complexity and unintended
    effects these things have…some things stick…some things
    flourish…improve? But, certainly there ought not to be a claim that
    such accomplishments (if they are such) will automatically result in
    “systems change”….these are some of my thoughts. “

     

    Prashanth also got Werner Soors involved. You can read W’s comment below this post. To me, W has more or less arrived at the crux of the dilemma. The struggle is related to the dichotomy created by the ideal government and the real government. But as W points out, it maybe worth trying to become part of the government through becoming part of the people.

    Coincidentally, I saw this video by The Ugly Indian today

  • What Can An MBBS Doctor Do?

    In the protest surrounding suspension of Dr Saibal Jana and Dr Dipankar Sengupta, a debate has emerged around what an MBBS doctor can and cannot do, especially in rural settings. This is a very complex question that requires a complex legal answer.

    There are several relevant case laws and even acts like Clinical Establishments Act which talk about some aspects of this debate. But let us look at it from a more fundamental and fresh perspective.

    Law is not static. It is subject to continuous change. Law is not blind either. It is acutely aware of context. Therefore, there is no need to frame a universal, absolute, strict law regarding a nuanced question like this.

    What are some of the considerations that must be kept in mind when framing a law on this question?

    – How to bring equitable healthcare to the people of our country?
    – How to protect people from harm?
    – What is the situation with respect to human resource availability in rural healthcare?
    – How do referral pathways work in our country?
    – How does medical education work?

    What makes a rural place “rural”? Places are considered rural when they have small population and consequently very few markers of urbanization (like large buildings that accommodate many people in a small area and huge roads that accommodate heavy traffic). Many rural areas won’t have a movie theater. Because there are so few people that it would be difficult to run a cinema and make profit. Similarly, the economics of small numbers do not allow a “specialist” doctor to practice only their specialty in rural area. It also makes it difficult for them to invest in equipment that might be required for specialty practice. In many ways, specialist practice is economically impossible in rural areas.

    On the other hand, a generalist is able to successfully practice in rural areas. Someone who is willing to see a large number of people with many different health conditions can survive in a rural economy rather comfortably.

    Is it possible to have multi-specialty hospitals in rural areas, if the rural economy cannot sustain specialists? Yes! This is possible through team work. There are many rural hospitals which work by association with specialists who might be present only on one day a week or available over phone calls. This unique symbiotic arrangement has organically developed in many rural places in India. The reason is that just because a place is small, the health needs of the people in that place will not be small. (To paraphrase Dr Yogesh Jain). Rural places also require specialized care. The demand is there, but the volume is low.

    If you can have one specialist come on one day and manage all the cases that require that specialist’s care, the rural hospital can club many patients together on that particular day and make it an economically feasible day for the specialist. If the specialty is something like surgery which requires post-op care and follow-up, rural hospitals can manage with generalists who work with the guidance of specialist in arranging that follow-up care.

    What specialists typically tend to do in such arrangements is also empower the rural generalist in being able to handle more complicated cases. This happens in many ways. The availability of specialist guidance increases the confidence of the generalist. Doing things with a specialist transfers necessary skill. And working under these arrangements for a while makes them able to work independently as well.

    That is how medicine is. Medicine is not something that you finish learning in a specific number of years in a medical college and then go out and practice forever. Medicine is something that you learn every day. Even the specialists learns on the go. They hone their skills day by day, with every new patient.

    Now, let us imagine the same rural area without this delicate arrangement in place. Imagine a doctor who has just finished MBBS has come to practice in a rural area and have started a small clinic or are in a PHC. What are they supposed to do there? Can they treat pneumonia? Can they manage someone with schizophrenia? What about deliveries? Can they conduct a delivery? How about I&D for abscesses? Can they prescribe Morphine for palliative care? Would it be alright for them to stabilize a poly-trauma patient? Someone with an Acute Coronary Syndrome? What happens when a patient comes to them with long history of cough and fever? What about someone with chronic headache? How about someone with loss of balance? Or someone with a distal radius fracture?

    In a world focused on specialties and urban model of care, many of these patients would have to be referred to the average specialist in the nearest urban setting. But there is not a lot of insight into how many of these referrals are successful. How many reach the right kind of “specialist”? How many decide to suffer than seek inaccessible care? How many settle with an alternative medicine practitioner who decides to take the risk of handling the condition with the knowledge and confidence they have? How many die lost in the referral pathways? How many die at home?

    In a world that’s person-centered, we would encourage the MBBS doctor to take all of these factors into consideration and take a calculated risk in cases where that would be in the best interest of the patient. In cases where the patient is otherwise going to not receive any care, it is often in the best interest of the patient that the MBBS doctor, even if they do not have the skill of an average specialist, attempt something risky. 

    Of course that shouldn’t come at a cost to the patient. This has to be a careful decision that’s discussed with the patient. A shared decision has to be made between the doctor and the patient as to the risks and the alternative options. But it is these informed risk taking that’s going to help that doctor level up. 

    A progressive outlook at medical education should think about what resources can be made available to this isolated doctor to be safe in the risks that they’re taking. What kind of guidance and resources can be made available to them to increase their chances of success and increase their level of competencies. 

    It is when we are able to create such empowered generalists in rural healthcare that we can start bridging some of the huge gaps in rural healthcare. The law should not become an obstacle in this mission. The law should be progressive enough to encourage these possibilities. The law should be promoting this decentralization of healthcare. The law should be focused on people and their well-being.

    The question should not be “What can an MBBS doctor do?”. The question should be “What should an MBBS doctor do?”

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