Blissful Life

When you apply skepticism and care in equal amounts, you get bliss.

Month: December 2013

  • What I Learned From Deactivating Facebook for 83 days

    That it is not about the social network, it is about me.

    I had just one thing in my mind when I took a break – “focus on studying”.
    I thought facebook was the reason why I could not focus on textbooks, that I would automatically start doing better when I stop using facebook.

    And boy, was I not wrong?

    I started getting distracted by gmail!

    I started to read more of the email subscriptions I have, I started visiting more and more online magazines, reading through them, article after article.

    It only felt counterproductive.

    What was missing?
    Having eliminated what seemed to be the greatest distraction, I was still distracted, and I started wondering why. I decided to observe myself. And the results? Not surprising at all.

    I simply could not read more than a paragraph of my textbook without getting distracted. Either I would start thinking about something in the textbook. Or I would start thinking about my college. Or I would get a great new idea which will change the way world works. Or I desperately want to visit some random website on the internet.

    I simply could not read.

    But why?
    I don’t know.

    I know only one thing. That there is something wrong with my will. I have an obsessive disorder. I am addicted to distractions.

    If all goes right, I will come out of this. I will curb that incessant urge to be in the know about everything. I will learn how to ignore some of the unread notifications. I will learn how to archive some emails without going through them. I will learn how to even check email only in two slots every day.

    But I will still be spending hours to fix tiny errors on my blog template.

    I know. I am crazy.

  • Trapped in a Lucid Dream

    Note to subscribers: Sorry for all the irrelevant question papers I posted. That was just a way of saving them, and gaining some organic hits.

    So, it was pharmacology paper-2 today, and I think I had the longest night in my whole life today. Slept from 2:30 to 5 AM, and that’s all. (I know, it’s not new for some people out there. My friends had slept everywhere from 45 minutes to 5 hours)

    Anyhow, such intense sleep deprivation gave me the amazing chance of experiencing an awesome lucid dream. And read till the end, there’s a surprise. So, here’s how it goes.

    At 2:30 I set my alarm to 6 o’clock, and decided I’ll wake up at 5 o’clock. (I don’t like waking up to alarm. So, I keep the alarm tuned for a later time which I must absolutely get up at, and instruct my body to wake me up before that. I somehow end up waking between 5 & 6)

    And then, I was home all of a sudden. Talking to my dad, watching TV, etc. Suddenly I realize I was dreaming. And here’s what made it different – I couldn’t wake up! I tried pinching myself, but I just couldn’t open my eyes. Like I was stuck. I tried ringing my phone up, so that I’d be woken by the ringtone. But alas! Connectivity trouble inside the dream 😛
    So, I wrote down about this amazing lucid dream, and without wasting time, went on top of my house and jumped down.

    And then I woke up! 😀 I studied for a while, and went to write the examination.

    And then, I actually woke up in my bed, at around 3:30. Still having a long time before 5 o’clock, I went back to sleep.

    So, it was a lucid dream within a normal dream. The first one at my home was the second level dream, because it was really hard to come out of it. I felt like it took half an hour for me to come out of it. And the second one was the first level dream. Inception. Mind f***ed.

  • December 2012 RGUHS RS3 microbiology question paper part 1

    Feel free to download all the images and use them. This is 2012, not tomorrow's paper 😀

  • 1st year 1st internal Anatomy Physiology Biochemistry Theory paper 2013

    Biochemistry paper

    Anatomy paper

    Physiology paper

    Courtesy – my roommate

  • What Doctors Don’t Get to Study in Medical School by BM Hegde

    Disclaimer: I realize that I could be putting myself in great academic danger by publishing this post while studying medicine in the same state of the honoured author. But whoever decides to influence my very open professors and make me fail in my exams, also please read this response by nirmukta to one of his articles, to realize that I'm not the only person who feels like there's stone in the rice, waiting to be bitten.

    Ah! What an interesting title and how easy a way to grab the attention of a medical student tired of reading pharmacology.

    Within minutes of starting to read this book, I could smell honest but blind religiosity.

    With all due respect to the degrees the author possesses, this book isn't worth buying. But you should definitely read it once, to understand the workings of a conspiracy theorist's mind.

    If you read with a truly open mind, you will be able to ignore the blatant errors of facts or practicality and focus on the drive home message, which is "this world is so bad, let us build a newer world"

    I'll go with a chapter by chapter review for the sake of not sounding rude.

    Preface, introduction, forward: Apparently modern medicine is a lie and we should be imparting a more holistic treatment to people.

    Chapter 2: Born again science
    Scientific mumbo jumbo and a display of erroneous understanding of statistics. Uses the word "non-linear" again and again to suggest that the human body cannot be explained mechanistically. Finally invokes analogies from physics to suggest that modern medicine is flat earth and ayurveda is quantum leap.

    Chapter 3: Man and his problems
    Uses evolution to suggest that since modern medicine is recent, we should go back to ayurveda

    Chapter 4: human body's intelligence
    Uses physiology to suggest that sex workers won't catch AIDS, that eating mud is good for health, that treating diseases is bad.
    [Can't say I don't agree to this. I totally hate taking medicine for cold, fever, diarrhoea, etc. But I so am afraid of sinusitis, otitis media, dysentery, etc]

    Chapter 5: Social Health Promotion
    This is the first useful chapter in this book. The author rightly identifies that diseases need a social cure, and goes on to propose an arguably practical solution: Let villages have a club where they discuss everything relevant to them and find solutions all by themselves without outside intervention.
    The author also adds ten commandments for a healthy discussion. But I have no idea if the author thinks that all the villagers are going to read his commandments and follow them. And I'm not sure if he's aware of something called "Panchayati Raj system"

    Chapter 6: Healthcare reaching the unreached
    Here the author introduces us to his own classification of diseases according to which only 10% of diseases are the ones that need treatment. Rest of them could do with changes in the lifestyle.
    I'm alright with this as long as the author lets me know where he got that "10%" statistic from.

    Further there are 18 commandments for India laid out starting from "comprehensive development of villages" and ending at "economic empowerment of masses".
    This is where I started understanding the problem with this book. It is well meant. It is sincerely written. But it says things that we all know.

    Chapter 7: Power of Prayer
    More ideas about how everyone should be tolerant, how there should be tranquillity.

    Chapter 8: The quiet art of medicine
    Must read if you are a medical student. In this chapter, the author gives us the actual wisdom he has accumulated as a fine doctor. He talks about sympathy, imperturbability, and "aequanimitas", and how medicine should not be made a business, about learning, never stopping learning, about loving your alma mater, about knowing alternate medical practices, etc. If this chapter was the whole book, I'd whole heartedly have asked you to read this book.

    Chapter 9: The fine art of living
    This one too. The author pours out all his wisdom living life, and is a fine lesson in work ethics.

    Chapter 10: Doctor's dilemma
    A small chapter bashing modern medicine again.

    Chapter 11: Joys and Sorrows
    Some oft-repeated stress management tips.

    Chapter 12: Deschooling Medical education in India
    Here's where I actually understood that not much of research has been put into writing this book. Why? Because of Lord Macaulay urban legend being the basis of this chapter. (Also because I find a lot of proofreading mistakes, like too many exaggeration marks!)

    As far as I've understood from their vision 2015, MCI is trying hard to reform the medical education scenario in India. The author is putting forth his ideas based on Western system, which is also good. Maybe, the MCI should read this chapter.

    Chapter 13: Science and Scientism
    This is where the author explicitly falls into the trap of not understanding what science is and what Scientism is. By putting forth a few useless paragraphs that talks about life on Mars, about validity of Big Bang theory, about Einstein plagiarizing from his wife, about quantum mechanics the author has taken away all my trust. And then he mentions that RCTs are unreliable. And then he confuses the potential for statistics to be abused with statistics being fake.

    And I don't want to read the rest of the book and waste my beautiful evening.