Author: akshay

  • Cochlear Herniation of Brain

    Today is a holiday. Tomorrow Kreida'15 starts. The batch organizing it seems to be enthusiastic enough to write 2k12 on every T-shirt, even that of people from other batches.

    Sobotta atlas of anatomy is a brilliant textbook for anatomy. I had discovered it under the caption of an image in Gray's anatomy. Used that to learn about the position of cochlea, semi circular canals, etc. 
    Later read about radical behaviourism (Skinner's works).
    Sleep kept crawling in, as usual.
    Finished a few more pages of Nireeswaran.
    And read Bailey and Love for the first time. Hernia is explained beautifully in that. 
    Pirate Praveen and I were discussing Telegram vs TextSecure. As usual, I lost. Will probably be running a textsecure server on our own.
    Kreida chess is full on. Watching Zigu play.
  • Bharat Ratna Dr APJ Abdul Kalam

    On account of graduation day of 2k9 batch, the former president is speaking inside PJA right now.

    “What can I give?” seems to be the message.
    More on his website.
  • When There’s Nothing Left to Say

    One of the many things I like in life is talking. I like to discuss things, dissecting events and analyzing situations. It gives me some kind of strange pleasure when there’s clarity in my mind on every way to think about an issue.

    Say, there is a forward on the IM client that is obviously a hoax. The things that go through my mind include but are not limited to:

    • Why is it a hoax?
    • Why is it believable?
    • Why do people believe in it?
    • Why do people forward it?
    • Why do even people who do not believe it forward it?
    • Why do people who forward it not take it seriously when asked about it?

    Following these thoughts to their completion makes me comfortable. It lets me classify the forward (the event) to a folder in my brain. The next time I see an event of the same kind, I know all the patterns surrounding it. And there is less need to think about it. This somehow simplifies thought.

    But the first time a new kind of event occurs, I spend a lot of time thinking about it, characterizing it, judging it. Sometimes this involves talking with, arguing with people (although most people do find this annoying). But the process gives me clarity. And clarity is golden.

    There are times when I see events repeat. I find it incredulously boring to talk about them when I have already gained clarity about it. That’s why I write things down. So that I can point people to my thoughts on the event. When they have a new way of looking at it, I will come back and discuss it.

    Some issues have been discussed so much that any more of discussions on it would be like eating after you’ve finished a buffet dinner – nauseating.

    Then there are issues about which talking is equivalent to whining. Things that can be fixed straightaway (or if not, that deserves to be attempted). Here, not doing what is logically the right action after discussion makes me nauseous. Therefore, sometimes, I shun away from the discussions altogether.

    Those are the times when there’s nothing left to say. Everything left is to be done.

  • Something I was waiting for

    Today the third year result was announced. As expected I failed in ophthalmology. Also otorhinolaryngology. But contrary to what I’ve been thinking about how it’d feel, I’m having an odd sensation of freedom. 

    Now this is not a rationalization of the situation. But I’m feeling this way because I no longer have the pressure of maintaining a pattern to worry about. 
    So I’ll hopefully be more actively updating this blog in the coming days with stuff I’m doing and steps I’m taking to end up with a better scorecard eventually.
    For now I’m home on my table and reading 

  • Neuroscience

    Of late my likeness for neuroscience has resurfaced. Could be because of the urgency in deciding what to do after MBBS.

    Anyhow, I've been having email conversations with people in IISc Bangalore and I'll be visiting the place in April. Got loads to prepare by then.

    Found a nice set of courses in brain and cognitive science on MIT OCW. There is a lot of content there. Yet.

  • Final Year

    OBG posting ended with an internal on 2nd March. We were supposed to do partograms.

    Skin posting started the day after. But the cubicles are filled with so many of us
  • Being Feminist

    Each day passing, I am turning more and more a feminist. Although I abhor extremism in feminism (I do not think calling every action of a man “sexist” is the right way to achieve gender equality), I cannot overstate the importance of visualizing the routine, systematized discrimination against women based on their gender alone.

    In this address to the UN as its woman ambassador, Emma Watson says how it is important for men to be participating in women empowerment programs. By alienating men from gender equality programs, we are just increasing the gender gap. Read more at HeForShe.org

    Yet, that is what some feminists do – give no respect to men, attack them on whatever they do or say.

    Read about the dongle joke that spiralled way out of control

    But all these are issues of fine adjustment. There are coarse course corrections to be made in countries like India.

    “India’s Daughter” is a documentary that was released today by BBC. And it shows how vulgar the mindset of many Indians are. If you watch that documentary, you get avulsed not by the guilty defending himself, but by the lawyers of the rapists trying to define the role of women in society.

    And to ban that outright is worse, from the Government of India. Anyhow, I have a few mirrors at learnlearn.in/indias-daughter/#mirrors

    I’ve found myself guilty of (unconsciously at times) discriminating against my female friends many times in the past. Every time it is discovered, I try to never repeat the mistake. Yet, there is so much to unlearn that I still commit new mistakes. Anyhow, I am a feminist. I know that manhood and womanhood are just two colours of human beings.

  • How many hours of sleep do you actually need?

    OBG OPD on Thursday. Suddenly those people whom nobody wanted are doing per speculum examination. Ah, that’s what final year fetches you. Luckily, we removed a copper T, saw androgen insensitivity syndrome, pubertal menorrhagia, etc.

    After days of procrastinating, had to spend a whole night on writing down MAA project report. Luckily my study isn’t so big.
    Surgery conference in JK grounds. Apparently filled with robotic surgery demonstration from remote location. Sounds complicated, probably useless. Also followed in the night by step up style dance competition between MMC & JSS.
    Should go to Firefox Student Ambassador Bootcamp tomorrow.
    Oh, and, a blog is coming up for student association. It’s been coming for a long time now though.
  • Third year theory question papers RGUHS phase 3 part 1 December 2014

    Ent, community medicine, ophthalmology question papers.

    Nobody knows if I'm passing ophthalmology and ent
  • The Line Between Morality and Freedom – A Guide to the Confused

    Morality is a dilemma for many – “What is right for me is not necessarily right for you. Am I right in forcing you to see things my way?”

    Christopher Hitchens and Shashi Tharoor debate for over an hour in the above video about which is more important – “freedom of speech” or “not hurting others’ sentiments”.

    The dilemma is that if we concede to Tharoor’s argument and censor ourselves in whatever we say we will turn into a gun without bullet, and on the other hand if we follow what Hitchens says, to speak our mind out without worrying about the consequences, we will all turn into guns shooting each other.

    After thinking about this issue for weeks, literally, I have come up with a middle ground.

    First I’ll explain why it is necessary.

    We should do what we feel is right because otherwise we are doing it wrong. It is mean on our part to see “wrong” and not react. Do not conform to majority opinion, or minority opinion, or anyone’s opinion because they could all be wrong. We do not know the absolute truth, or the absolute right. But what we do know is our “rights” and our “truths”. Be courageous to put it forth.

    Now I am sure some of the readers will take it down the slippery slope and say that this argument favours terrorism – what they feel is right, they do. But I have not finished my point. Keep reading.

    But what if I am not sure what is right? In such a situation just listen to all sides and form an informed opinion which you are ready to change if proved wrong later. It is fine to change your opinion. You could support someone and later oppose them if it turned out you were wrong, or vice versa. You could support an ideology and later oppose it if that is better in the light of new knowledge.

    Okay, I know what is “right”. But am I right in forcing others into my “right”? They have their right to have their “right”, right?
    True that. This is where terrorists are wrong. While asserting their right they are taking away the others’ right to live, learn, etc. We can do what we feel is right as long as we don’t deny others their rights.

    Is that the ground-breaking middle ground insight that I promised? No. We have all heard “Your freedom ends where my nose begins”. But what we have not heard is how to swing our hands in such a way that it almost reaches the opponent’s nose and scares them, but does not touch their nose and cause harm.

    It is this line that we must aim at. A war in which both parties shoot, but not at each other. Where do they shoot then?

    They shoot into the consciousness of the society. I can explain.

    You know that ethyl alcohol is a harmful substance. When you see a lot of people drinking it, you feel like the government should ban it. But by banning drinking – even when a person is not a government servant, not responsible for anything, or is a dead waste in the world – you’re essentially shooting at the alcoholics and denying their right to drink whatever poison they want to (Note: Of course there’s a question about suicide being legal or not). There is an alternate way. Though it is more difficult and long, it puts you in a moral ease. And that way is to shoot your argument at the masses and convince them collectively that alcohol is a harmful substance. Like what Dr Dharav Shah does.

    You know that Bollywood/Tollywood/Kollywood/Sandalwood movies are produced by perverts who want to make money by tickling our dicks. You know that actors and actresses are selling their bodies off under the pretext of “doing it for the script”, “what the character demands”, and you feel the society is being exploited. But you shall not ask the government to ban these movies. You shall not tear the posters and make filming impossible. What you can do without consciousness prick is criticize them vehemently, call them what they are – hypocrites, expose their lies, and raise the society’s awareness about how they are being exploited.

    Still not sure you are right enough to do such good things for the society? Think of this. Collectively our society thinks very less. Its opinions are heavily shaped by the mainstream media and easily biased by glamour and money.

    It is a place which cannot understand sarcasm, takes words by the face value, and listens to celebrities (politicians and actors) – whatever shit they say.

    It is a place where emotion rules over logic, and superfluous thoughts and ideas triumph over deep, far-sighted visions on any day.

    And if you read so far be assured your “rights” and “wrongs” are better than those of 95% of this society.